day 5: high

 photo:is the cold of my cheeksthe wind giving violent life to hairswirling sand at our feet, in my shoesthe chaste presses of sun dabbed at the waves, our eyes, our backsrunning to waters edgethere is no room for subtlety —we scream so that we might be heardbefore the...

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day 4: and then it fell silent

 photo: Leadenhall Marketyou could hear a foot fallshoulders grow smallwatch the purple elephant crawl across the roomyou could hear a pin dropfeel her heart stopwatch the hot breath pop a full balloonyou could hear God's whisperthe subtext while you kiss herwatch the splitting of the zipper as the...

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day 2: echo

 photo: Kiefer, Stedelijk Museum Amsterdamif you cut us down the middle,you will never be an echo againan 'i love you' will never be reciprocatedin such blunt and plain syllablesexcept by accident ---gone just before you can grasp it ---touch it and it will disintegrate,the words gone.if i lived...

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 photo: flixbus from utrecht to antwerpI have it stuck in my head that I am always the one who is expected to stay stagnantto be the girl waiting back behind the picket fence who is familiar in all the ways that feel like homebut in all honesty, I...

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to people who make me want to be more than myself

 photo: Van Gogh's waterlilies in Musee de l'Orangerie, Paris, FranceI don't really understand what exactly I have for my appeal ---I know its not good to talk down yourself but like I just feel ---I'm dead weight, I'm always late, I might not flake but likeI'm certainly far...

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UPDATE: 25 Feb 2025 = Nice & Menton Actuality

photo: Menton, Francemy love is mine mine minewe went to nice, guys! and menton, with the lemons and the sea glass, and this lovely picture. it was nice, unironically. like, i would absolutely go back and recommend it. day 0criminology class, i think she might've been able to tell...

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UPDATE: 17 Feb 2025

 photo: light shop in AmsterdamAHHH ok wait there's so much to update on oops-2/9: First: Van Gogh museum! Went with Cate, Tiffany, & Eryn, and Cate & I went through every. single. painting! more or less together, discussing all the way. I liked it a lot! --- am...

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