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late luminescence


(Written on 11/16/20, but for whatever reason, not posted)

Your breath refracts off
wrinkles on their browsperfect arches, more defined
with every ache of your spine at midnight
bone by bone, throw them into the fire
cast your marrow into the pyre
vials of poison,
to each their own
a, mansion, a lover, perfection
alone
guzzle blue flames,
sand slip down your throat
air seeping out the hull from
inside
the
boat.
A fate of ballrooms and grandeur
of pretend i love you's
and fake gold decor
they love you
love you
you

but is it just me,
or is the sky not quite blue?

December 22, 2020 No comments

I think I forgot how to speak.

I owe a call to the best friend in my phone,
and an ode to the summer walked on a bone.

An "I'm sorry!" to that boy I somewhat liked,
And a 加油!to that brother who's completely wiped.

The page called my name yesterday,
or was it a week ago? I dunno, Someday.

Standing next to inspiration's dusty tomb
from across the neighborhood of my room

a right on Dirty Laundry and another
on the Unclosed Shutters

oh dear, I forgot how wonderful Window is!
My word, haven't looked through her in ages!

How many similes, metaphors, and lives now
do I owe to her honor, anyhow?

And Sweater, old friend!
Did I truly fling you to this bend?

Ah well, another poem for you
And you, and you, and why not you too?

Just round the bed,
words scrambling in my head

And by the time I cross the aisle,
a few steps, but feels like miles

To the page, I must apologize
for by now the blaring voices have simply

died.



posted on: https://youngwritersproject.org/node/38016
December 15, 2020 No comments

Leatherback tales, spin me a turtle
of stars tattooed on skin
moon washing sand
and people
who live without breath
keep
the tiny grain, boundless pages
keep
curator, the leatherbacked



posted on: https://youngwritersproject.org/node/37854
December 02, 2020 No comments


The last page, cloying sugar of

maple syrup and ripened persimmons,

singing arias through the air in my
dimly lit corner of the universe

feet on an unmade bed and a splayed smile
as the languid mezzo is drawn across bowed lips

Reflected, refracted
in prisms of darkened chromebook screens,
long forgotten

a meager desk lamp lights the rosin dust afire
on rich oak floorboards, grounded by the bass

Hours meandered through
marked only by the worried flick of pages
punctuating still air

pulse panging unintelligibly in
reverberating ribs, irony strung in fragility

haphazard notes adorn staves
of neat stoic ink

the rise and folly of lives,
a melody, a reminicing theme
crescendos to a perfect pitch
you didn't know you needed

an exhale,

a thud,

revealing the lazy scrawl of
lined notebook sheets underneath

Yet still,
listless fingertips sweep
rounds on the closed cover
tacit circles of applause,

spotlights shine through curtains of red limned eyes
sated, brimming with unconcealed contentment

making each and every minor chord worth
the final major



posted on: https://youngwritersproject.org/node/37186
October 26, 2020 No comments

There's a cardboard cookie on the table
that tastes like Middle School
it is warm in my stomach as
cold crumbs line clammy calluses
But it still yields to my teeth as I bite
too much stale worries and never enough chocolate
It is the little photobook that is bitter
on my tongue, but tastes of decadent
strands of summer caught on ivy
webs, we call cafeteria tables
A past & a prophesy
of lost melodies folded in lonely books
for the next sixth grader
who sucked on apple lollipops of drama
mouth puckeringly addictive
and of boys that whispered carelessly in halls
for all to hear of the insurmountable feat of
tricking overpriced vending machines for bags of

air

because part of us knew High School, the Beyond
would be hard of oxygen
So, there's a cardboard cookie on the table
no longer mine to eat
warm, bright, overpriced
it tastes just like middle school.



posted on: https://youngwritersproject.org/node/37000
October 17, 2020 No comments

photo: ginkgo leaves and stones from the Huntington Gardens in San Marino, CA

darling, aren't you tired of always being someone else?
i hope the world has been kind to you
but then again, what is hope?
the foolish notion that one day fate will redeem us
or the act of lying to ourselves?
rocks solid in my palm, the weight slamming into my chest
that is definitive
it is comfort
i skip rocks in the lake and make wishes
because I'm long out of pennies
and at least i know that i did make a ripple
if not in the way i wanted to
they are rough, they are smooth
they weigh my pockets down
because if not i think i'd float away
you know, i've always wanted to taste cloud
they say it's water but i prefer cotton candy
and as I hurl another rock into the lake's depths
it plops, laughing at me again
my dear, aren't you tired of reflecting everyone else?
i know i'm beautiful, but one can only stand so much of themselves
it's just you and me and the rocks
hey, no fair, you've drenched my socks
but you know, those boys with pockets of checkbook coppers
what do they have but paper that will float away at the first chance?
i may only have these road speckled smooth pebbles
because if nothing else,
the hopeful have friends

(submitted to foyle?)

October 09, 2020 No comments


"California is on fire."

We are moths aflame.

Gold coins spill from our tongues
soaking all the sunshine until skies are gray.

A politician's dead eyes watch
orange skies in San Francisco, unfeeling.

The fires stole the mountains, the smoke the horizon
but you, fish eyes, you stole the security of my home.

We are Esaus, who will go down as fools
for selling a birthright for diamonds and doubloons,

villains the moment we renounced nature
to become Midas instead.

My home is a prison that reeks of smoke,
the AC on while we freeze underwater.

How long will we wait, will you wait,
until the ash taints your golden tongue?

I beg you, I warn you
that California is just the tip of a matchstick.

Yes, suffering brings a nation together
but if you cared, don't let us die so ...

there are babies just being born ...
Who are you if you allow them to pay for our mistakes?

Icarus, how much ash will you let us inhale,
homes will you allow to be reduced to char?

How much closer will your wings bring us to the flame?



posted on: https://youngwritersproject.org/node/36438 & Daily Read
September 12, 2020 No comments

 

Wet sand cakes my legs, a briny armor
earned from drowning in a sea

hopeful gold rimmed violets destroyed, weeks of stifled blues
meaningless plans shredded, tearstained shards drift to my feet

chained to the sheets, the gasps as I wail
but COVID is deaf to effervescent pleas

sleeping away the sun, why live this nightmare
when I can be a bold pixels pulsing on a screen?

the days blur weeks blur days, time as I know it dies
broken hourglass, steals my breath numb while flesh bleeds

and it's bled and scabbed and scarred
now knocked down by the upstart of the feed

watercolor drama etched in notebooks are paper mache
a poor replacement for scorching cement drenched in iced tea

bitter isolation, a decadent chocolate gorged upon
a glass of blank hall lining faces, please, I'm on my knees

the littered books all read, a closed library locks glass doors,
won't let me beg the shelves for a fresh reprieve

game nights and laughter never last under this saran wrap fear,
haunted by reminders that this temporary between is on lease

a summer stolen, a summer changed
the girl who was to the writer who can be

after all, drowning changes a person
only fate has the keys to end this silent freeze



posted on: https://youngwritersproject.org/node/36294
August 29, 2020 No comments

Liar, liar

pants lipstick black
screaming sirens afire

No choice, no way
betrayed your conscience
one too many times
caught red handed,
but you open your fist
lined palms conceal the fact,
that guilt has long departed

they were filled with empty jewels
promises you failed to keep
refracting the guilt on fate,
you blame the stars
you love your son

so you stab the family photo
of strangers, fighting for
survival, just like you
drown my mother to keep
his alive

no? am i wrong to blame
you
instead of balls of fire
somewhere beyond the sky?

here you stand free,
in blue jeans burning
diamond daggers against my throat
clenched hands,
the one that pushed us to the edge

don't tell me why
don't lie

I know it was you.



posted on: https://youngwritersproject.org/node/36173
August 16, 2020 No comments

The rising waves hit the sand
that already teeters on the edge,
the rocks that have no choice but to settle
on the line between poor and poorer.

The smog clears in L.A. and New York City
and that is supposed to be the silver lining?
The rich devils came to collect their souls
and they gave them to protect their angels.

He is not allowed to cry as the sapling shrieks
but the sweat on his brow sobs rolling thunder
for the great dragon's trunk, severed in two,
the guilt clings under his nails no matter how he scrubs.

She once danced to the rainforest and listened to the wood.
Now she can hardly fall asleep as her beloved stars choke.
Stop papa, she begs as her stomach wrecks her mind.
Damp I'm sorrys water the hard, hard ground.

The baby is born into a world of disillusion
where "politics" means more than "truth." 
The bird mimics the whirring machines and he claps.
The earth weeps for all the bird calls he will never know.

Tomorrow the snow will be black and they'll stare
one second, before the phone pings with a message.
Children catch grey snowflakes on their tongues and 
never wonder why it tastes like smoke.

The lines have blurred beyond comprehension.
The problems trickle down, as oily plastic clogs
our pores of sense and when it's finally too late,
the earth's tears will swallow our concrete stupidity

and wash our regretful bones away.


August 07, 2020 2 comments



imagine

isn't it so easy to imagine?feel the night's breath waft life into a book
a hushed melody crumbles
erodes at the nightless stars
as it puffs like creme brulee

coronavirus

COVID-19, with a little over 19
months until I'm gone
with the wind, with life
with heaven's plan and hell's pain
graduated from a childhood that is just short
a few years, stolen under spring's simmer

and metastasized into summer's sonder
as the AC freeze dries my sullen smile
i have often wondered if lying face up
on the street hollering as it burns outside my window
belly up, bottom's up
would free me

do you think death's champagne would taste like
rain and concrete humidity
as it rolls sticky memories of sunken lemonade
stands on your tongue
radio songs belted on the highway
trails off into mournful tears

and like the songs, i too have changed
too much, too little, just right
as i wander with goldilocks and the bears
regressing into a 9 years old's fright
the mirror on the wall doesn't lie
scraping chalkboard nails,
add 1 tally to the right of all the wrinkles
even the moon can't press from my brow
the memory of the sirens that scream "COVID-19"

corona virus

it puffs like blowfish that pierces my skin
salt erodes at normality, whittles down sanity
the melody crashes at the undeniable crescendo
a book knocked over the bed, forgotten
wasn't it so easy to imagine?

when it wasn't my last lifeline,
when it could simply be, not had to be

excitement depressed, repressed in my own head

imagine, not having to

imagine


August 07, 2020 2 comments

The polaroid was polarizing. It's rare something lives up to its name. As sprinklers weathered the white tulle, he listened to Mother's lecture.

"The shameless rule the world. My feathery darlings, fate floats in the wind. Only the flagrant can survive hell's star."

But as the picture wept swirling colors into the roots, he swallowed ballerina dreams. He wanted to be beautiful, yearning to flutter like blushing butterflies, exist dramatically like rouge roses.

So when the wish's kiss wafted him away, he didn't settle. He twirled, he grand-jetéd, he flew.

And falling, he wondered if all dreams lead to Icarus.



posted on: https://writetheworld.org/?code=3bd44680-09e0-40be-81e4-a18235598cc0#/viewing-a-piece/742902


August 04, 2020 No comments

graceful filigree, i wanted to be beautiful like them
but when i danced, baring my soul, they chanted

posture, posture, posture

i am a wobbly skyscraper ready to topple
among a world of mini glass villas

they are tiny rosettes in full bloom
stems arcing upright, princess petals flushed
with prim smiles and sleek hair anointed with morning dew

and i, the errant ugly palm tree
whose dry leaves are stubbornly unrecyclable
the frothy tulle looks ridiculous,
out of place, against my lanky trunk

the harsh voice of the laoshi punctuates my name
all wrong, all wrong, all wrong
the smack on my rump doesn't sting, but
the blatant disapproval behind it aches

too old to be cute, 
too clumsy to be elegant

and when they ask us to split ourselves
open against cruel tile, triumphant smiles mirrored
i stumble, still attempting to rip myself smaller
sweaty bar slips in my hairy hand,
wrinkled compared to their peachy youth

the swan's feathers unfurl, delicate lilting melodies
i palm the beat and am dragged behind every note
shriveled brown marrs pale marble

and when my nails tire of being filled with filth
clawing to be even a speck of mud on their dainty toes

the music plays, they bloom, I walk away
for years, their smirks and voices haunt me, taunting
swans and tulle, mascara and eyeshadow
avoiding all the reminders, the proof that I

gave up, gave up, gave up

so now, when they tell me to dance
I tell them I don't know how


Posted On: https://youngwritersproject.org/node/35893 & Daily Read


August 01, 2020 4 comments


Sage never gave in. At least, that's what I tell everyone now. It's how I want her to be remembered. Because she didn't when it matters most, and that's all that matters.

But, to tell the truth, she always caved for me. She let me see the world first, even if it meant she had to wait an extra two minutes. The bright hospital room glared at me, and as I cried I had smiles and cooing voices to comfort me. But when our uncles and aunts tell the story of our birthday now, nobody can quite remember if Sage cried or not. Uncle Danny said she didn't, Aunt Merriweather said she did. They only remember the color of Basil's wrap, how much Basil weighed, all Basil, Basil, Basil. But in my mind, I don't think Sage cried-- she would've simply given in to the light. That's simply how she was.

As we grew up, it was almost as if Sage was the older sibling. I may have walked first, and I may have talked first, but Sage always gave first. But her giving was never as loud as my demanding babble, crying grape juice tears as Sage handed over her's.

Later, Basil won the trophies as Sage cheered in the stands. Basil got into fights, and Sage went and tattled, saving him from a broken nose only to be spat upon. Basil locked himself in his room, while Sage slid cards through the cracks and waited for him to emerge.

It was also Sage who told me not to smoke, but stayed with me even when I didn't listen. But somehow, it was Sage who got cancer. Sage, who always followed the rules and looked after her older brother. Even when I cried into her hospital sheets sobbing sorry's that could do nothing, it was Sage who told me it would be alright. It was Sage whose smile wobbled as she saw her beautiful auburn hair fall to the ground, but kept smiling nonetheless. It was Sage who told everyone not to tell Basil that she was fading away like the summer green leaves.

As she hacked away her last breaths, she defied death as I broke to pieces beside her. I stood over her bed and begged him not to take her, that I would protect her. But Sage had never needed my protection and I could not shield her from the cells that rebelled inside, and as I awoke the next morning her body was cold and the light in her eyes had shriveled. And as two became one I had to reconcile myself with the empty room across the hall that still faintly smelled of sunlight and the ghosts of guilt that lingered over my head.

And for once, it was Sage who left first and Basil had to learn to acquiesce to death's demands.
July 21, 2020 No comments

The world is temporarily closed

or at least, the world as I know it
on the news, I hear of a world still open
open to a careful reemerging from their bunkers

so you say the world is temporarily closed
due to COVID, or due to ignorance?
I've seen people saying it's their right
to not do their part in this battle
the sheer stupidity has cost lives
but for you, are they just ever-growing numbers on a screen?
because what are mere pawns when you are king?

the world is temporarily closed
but mine may not be "temporary"
if we move to an open one for the sake of living
outside of this bubble they keep popping
i know i will never be the same again
because a year in a life is all it takes
to crush the bones of my soul
and rearrange my lost shards some way new

the world is temporarily closed
but is that any excuse to close your mind?
remove yourself from any sense of survival
you are bleeding us of our sanity
by stabbing us while the danger still looms
ever seeking those tiny rifts of vulnerability
you've carelessly ripped them into gaping mouths of death
oh, do you know what you've done?

the world may be temporarily closed
but my dear, you've turned temporary into an eternity
do you know my grandpa thinks he can walk to China now?!
this monster has driven us all up the wall
are you so intent to push us off it?
the planner's pages flip fast, but everyday you don't wear
that banner, a promise for an open world, over your mouth
you turn our lives into a somber drive towards permanent
so, won't you please sir, put on your mask?


Posted On: https://youngwritersproject.org/node/35703
July 19, 2020 No comments

sunlight stifled by the panes of scales layer folded down to protect the child from its harsh rays as a mother whispers "too early, too early" and the father snores on. slipping through the cracks into the floorboards the heat spreads until its unbearable, oh how could i have left the window open and let summer in? the babe cries and the mother rushes but she it too late and the hot air has woken the monster up surrounding them in hot stifling summer, no, my darling! it punches her nightgown and screams in agony as sleep is ripped from its grasp, accusing the mother as she stares at the window and wonders what she's going to do all summer now that her baby has been infected by the sun's breath.
July 17, 2020 No comments

2021.
the start of an era,
or the end of one?
or perhaps we shouldn't count time
after all, it is infinite and we are not
the *tock* of a grandfather clock
as another granule makes the plunge
are you afraid
of the unlit seaglass that will fall
when death is fated to coil 'round your neck?
the moment when your eyelashes
kisses the weary bags under your eyes
never to part for your soul again?
i have always been slow
but even i, who barely knows myself, knows
that even when 2021 comes
we will be reluctant to let 2020 go
fisting thorns in our palms
coloring white roses red
because isn't time always more romantic
in hindsight, staring up in one's bed?


Posted On: https://theprose.com/post/368390/coloring-white-roses
July 13, 2020 1 comments

Darla rocked in her creaky oak chair on the porch, inhaling the fresh morning and sipping the incoming sunlight as it flooded the neighborhood in long shadows and light. Not a soul seemed to be awake, aside from the pair of chickadees that never failed to argue endlessly. Darla fancied that in a past life they had liked one another secretly, and it reminded her of her grown son and his wife. Oh dear, the trouble they got into. 

Except this morning, there was something new in the air. Was it... her eyes widened as a burnt smell engulfed her nostrils, tainting the lovely Sunday dawn. If she squinted just enough, she could spot plumes of smoke from the old field just a few blocks down yonder. But, that couldn't be right. That was the school. And Donny. Her Donny. Hadn't he said that morning he'd be right back after fetching some papers to grade? Scrambling out of her chair, she rushed over the lilies that had just bloomed and went right over to the Jonathans. They'd know what to do, wouldn't they? Yes, Mr. Jonathan was a strong man. He'd stop the smoke. Tottering to the neighbors, she trampled over their daffodils to reach the porch. She hoped they wouldn't mind, but this was big business. 

"Ms. Jonathan, dearie, call your husband! There's smoke by my Donny's school house, and the fool has gone down to get some papers!"

She heard the clattering of footsteps, but nobody opened the door. She fell into despair, imagining the smoke coil around Donny's wrists as he hacked and called her name and what if and she needed to and-

"Ms. Darla! Ms. Darla!" someone yelled, shaking her gently.

"My Donny's in trouble at the fire by the schoolhouse!" she wailed, sobbing into the stranger's jacket.

"Darla, Donny's dead."

"No, no! We have to save him! He's at the schoolhouse grabbing papers and-"

"That was 15 years ago, Darla! Stop living in the past! I'm sick of this every morning!" another voice boomed. 

"Then where is the smoke from, Mr. Jonathan!? The school house I tell you! I'm begging you, please!"

"Sid, let me take her to the field. It'll bring her to her senses."

Bringing her down to the burned down school yard, Ms. Jonathan looked on sadly as Widow Darla trampled the wild flowers in pursuit of a husband that had been reduced to ashes years ago. But even she, the most shameless gossip in town, had to look away in respect as Darla looked emptily up to the sky and asked the world why she thought of Donny every time a careless neighbor burned their porridge. 
July 13, 2020 No comments


Diluted eyes

are unlike the tranquil disturbances of tree branch
children rippling, harbingers of peace without silence
while zen is in the quiet heart
of a butterfly's fluttering beats
as they bloom upon a mountain
and a heart of stone skips to the crackly sensations
of being broken
into fine specimens of silt.

tell me

of the blue expanse that rests on the palms of your hands
in which puppies pant their final breathes
and buds fade into withered blossoms rather than quit
at a gentle snap of insolent fingers,
because though I suppose the green is
always broken by shards of blue regret,
muddled ripples of brown are okay and
i can see my rambles echoed in the reticent hush
because all the various cogs and knobs of nature don’t is,

they are of.



Inspired by: https://mailchi.mp/vermonthumanities/words-in-woods-wed-july1?e=274f4568fa

Posted On: https://youngwritersproject.org/node/36012
July 10, 2020 1 comments

the spiders spin you webs

to veil your eyes and afford you
silk dresses and a throne of silver
you thought you were their queen
but don't you know spiders?
my darling, they will crown you
with a diadem of venom
a prisoner in her own throne
close your eyes
they whisper sweetly
as they suck your youth
from your cherry blossom cheeks
and eat your dumpling soft skin
mouth dancing with savory strawberries
look at your fine silk gown
can't you see it's your chains?
think of their saccharine words
can't you see it's the guillotine
poised over your regal neck?
look at you, my sweet
they will vanquish your ever lasting beauty
you are stuck in their web of lies
if only you would simply
open your eyes


Posted On: https://youngwritersproject.org/node/35612
July 08, 2020 1 comments

The stars fill up the sky adorning the brow of a little girl staring out her window trying to wish upon an airplane instead of a shooting star as the moon readies itself for the night. It prunes itself as it gazes into the pool and argues with the weeping willow over who is more vain and who is more pitiful, green leaves turned black. 

"but at least you have the stars" the willow moans as it wallows in the cool blood of fallen ice that will never be solid again. 

 "but their faces are always lit by those of computers" the moon sings sorrowfully, shining upon a man who has fallen asleep amid a pile of snacks in front of a TV. 

"and balloons float up only during the day and we cannot grasp them because they pop from their pure radiance" the stars whine, joining the fray.

what thanks do we get? 

nobody celebrates our births or our deaths, and the sun basks in all the golden glory while they are stuck with second silver place. who wants silver when there is gold to be had? 

the grass murmurs for the crickets to shut up and the dark blanket catches on the tops of houses and branches of pines. focus on the rise and fall of your own breath and feel the peace spread, then change moon pools and realize the only peace there is lies within yourself. but the night is jealous and you must pay for your piece of this peace with the eye bags of wisdom for my endless craters full of tears. 

how do i know if i have a soul? which part of me is broken, because something must be because the moon told me so and the moon is friends with the stars that is fate and where am i all tangled up why does everything seem star crossed? 

the everlasting struggle between night and day flows with the seasons, and perhaps one day they will come to their senses and then what shall we do? the girl, now an old lady, has always wondered why they all fight over us fickle humans. why the moon wove starlight into her hair only to cross the strings so that the sun would draw the life from her lover. were the sun and moon sisters, or were they lovers themselves? fighting over the children they never had in a universe of planets and moons and suns and stars, wee one, we may never understand. but stay up tonight and play the harp of their strings so your own red cord may tie you to the one you love forevermore. 


TBH I don't even know what this is, but this came out of my first hydra write & I think I'm pretty happy with it! :)
July 06, 2020 1 comments

when i see the gold
engulf his life of reds and blues
and words inked on paper
there is a sense of a bit of glitter
drifting into my open palm
that says "you can do this"
i feel it pulsing in my fist
as my fingers curl around it
it is my hope, it is a guiding star
and there is no falling,
simply mountains that need climbing
and valleys i will barrel towards
as i collect sunlight in my hair
and dust on my sweaty fingertips
i've always thought of life as a bike ride
but naturally, Einstein said it first
constantly riding to the horizon
but one day the speck of glitter 
will be the sun of my soul
shining through the iridescent wings
the multi-faceted lenses
every color of the rainbow
on the wings of another little fly
not yet filled with golden butter
July 03, 2020 1 comments

First off, welcome! You've either stumbled here by accident, come to get more information about me (sounds, bad, but I mean in a friendly way), or you already know most everything to know about me and am seeing what I've shared with the world. 

To my online friends from YWP, Nano, or WTW, hi! You all know me as amaryllis, because no matter how much I try to push ryllis, it just doesn't catch on. Anyway, a lot of you will recognize pieces I've posted on each of these sites respectively, but know that there's always some pieces I withheld because I either wasn't super confident in posting or didn't think was ready yet. 

I created this blog in July 2020 as a portfolio for my writing after admiring Ash's blog, "best attempt at sanity". She was super patient about answering all of my random questions, so a lot of this all can be credited to her. She's such a fantastic writer, and when you have the time, try checking her blog out too!

I've always had a love for the written word, and for many years I have been known as the girl who can't get her nose out of her books. Like many kids, I have had numerous attempts at writing a novel, but most all of them have gone one or two chapters before I'm bored of it. That is, until this year when I discovered poetry doesn't have to rhyme. I know, I admit I was super ignorant. Since then I've been writing nearly everyday, and it's been a huge help in coping with COVID. 

Another fun fact about me- I'm almost always late. I literally have a wordle (back when it was a word cloud site instead of the game) made by my 3rd grade class on my desk and "late" and "tardy" are both pretty huge on there. My writing journey also had a pretty late start, and well, most of my writing comes from 12AM bonding time with, you guessed it, my chromebook. 

I hope you enjoy some of what you read here, and welcome to the world of my late luminescence.
July 02, 2020 1 comments
photo: yep, another sunset

a shot in the night

shattering the starry sky in all it’s silent glory
the idle conversation of the evening birds up too late
and the cricket’s dying symphony hushes
as i wait for the sparks and the fiery smoke
that flit off the edges of ignorant happiness
to appear on the horizon of rooftops and streetlights
although, 1:06 is an odd time for fireworks

I instinctively clutch my blanket closer
seeing a midnight gun glinting with moonlight
and the metallic bite of a bullet as it launches
embedding itself in the space just above her collarbone
slumping onto the gray shadows that rush like vultures
gathering ‘round in a prayer circle to feast on her dying soul
while the maniac in black grins, polishing their solid death
with bubblegum surgeon gloves without a single smear of crimson
tossing it on her bloodless cheekbones
the satisfying crack skittering up their spine
always can get another, after all, its their second amendment right

and although this may just be my imagination
someone somewhere is gazing at the white rock in the sky
giving it the dark circles under their eyes as they mourn
because someone who shouldn’t have wielded the power
to determine life or death, did
silent tears to water the gravestone flowers
while the birds and the crickets resume their lives

we willingly let it be late night fireworks
as the shots in the night fire over, and over, again




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July 01, 2020 1 comments

I dream of metaphors spilling from my unrefined maw

and as the stars welcome the illustrious dark 
encroaching doubts are ushered in, their plus one
the endless drought of frustration i’ve kept at bay all day
that has left me withered and thirsty
a bottomless well of empty
reservoirs of tears dried up
until i can taste the exsiccation on my bloody chapped lips
and all I know is I think I know that 

maybemaybemaybe m a y b e MAYBE M A Y B E

I am not who I think I know I think I am
that as much as my brain is structured 
an empty vessel for inky words that once sloshed about
longing for raw lightning surging through bated breath
maybe the mind is is not enough to triumph over matter
that the blood in my veins and the cells of my tissues
that the very fibers of my being, rebellious monoliths of fate
are enough to uproot what so firmly is 
tearing the seams of all I know I think I know

i can’t, I won’t, I shan’t can’t won’t can’tcan’tcan’t

And I think I know I think I can’t go on like this
chasing what they do until the wrinkled butterfly wings
becomes my haggard prison of ribs & scales
envy oozing out my pores, barely reaching my eyes
the pus puddling at my soles
shrouding the soul in the closet as I try
every imaginable axe to get rid of this
because all I know I think I know
is that yesterday I was intact
not split open with my own desperate claws
graphite lips talking to my blood and brain
as the pus muddles with the blood around me
and stomach acid erases all that was on my bones
and gnaws acrid new words into the stars


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June 30, 2020 2 comments

hiraeth

a house that once was home
& a family that never truly was
a castle fit for the happiest people
just a facade, now reduced to
an empty wooden chest
not a soul in sight
inside, walking bodies
shattered stained glass
of a brother & father,
a mother & daughter
but a traitor's escape
locked the prison gate
and threw the key away
hopeful strings unraveled
and braided around our throats
bloody bones shattered
all that remains is dust
slipping through the cracks
but now, lying in the sunlight
with nothing left to offer
i long for the mother & best friend
who spoon fed me soupy porridge
dusted with stardust and silky dreams
taking the only home I'd ever have
"for my own good", she said when she left
how could she lie to a child who thought
she was everything?
empty promises lay broken on the carpet
speckled with sanguine rage
she made me to leave me
knowing full well it would break me
so why do I still miss her?

her wrath

hiraeth


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June 29, 2020 No comments
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